Personal narrative

“Only the gentle are ever really strong”-James Dean. This quote shows that gentle people can be strong because they have to deal with more bad stuff then others. Adoption is not really understood by people who do not live with it. When people find out about it, it is life changing. Finding out something life changing is not easy for anyone.
I remember being called into my parents’ bed room one night, back in 1995
“Have you ever noticed that you don’t really look like us?” asked Mom.
“Well I guess so,” I thought out loud.
“You know we both love you very much…” Dad said.
“But,” Mom added in, “you look different because you have another Mommy and Daddy. Which means we adopted you, your other parents did not really have a good life, and they decided to let us have you baby.”
“We can talk about it anytime you want,” Dad told me.
After that night, they started showing me pictures of them and the letters my birth mom wrote to me. Which they told me many times that they were not allowed to have because of the adoption agency, but thanks to our social worker we got that stuff.
“Chellie, come here a minute honey,” Mom exclaimed, “look at this, this lady here is your birth momma and these girls are your birth sisters and on the back are their names and birthdays”
“Oh, they are pretty,” I said
“She wrote us these letters, honey you should read these,” Mom said as she was taking the letters out. But there was only four letters and the social worker had not been here for a while. So we figured something was up, at that time we found out the horrible news of my mother dieing.
That was the hardest point in my life. I was very emotional and would cry every day at home. This of course was when all of these “Yo momma” jokes became popular and stuff like “you’re adopted” would be considered as being a diss or a put down, but every time I heard a “yo momma” joke I would say “oh sorry she’s dead but nice try”
When I heard a “you’re adopted” joke I would just reply “yes I am, how can I help you?”
But it was never really easy for me at all, and it still is not. But no one could understand how I felt, it was very complicated. Even to this day I feel bad saying it, but whenever someone’s parent dies I do not feel bad for them because my mom has been dead since 1993, two years after she had me. I know it seems awful, and I really am a sensitive person, but my mom has been dead longer, so I feel that they should get over it because I lived my whole life without her with me. I feel worse as I recently found out how she died and it has been a rough time and I still think about her all the time and I always will, and now I’m a lot better. There is power in being gentle, you know what you have been through and knowing what happened to you happens to other people is a hard concept. In my opinion someone who is gentle, really is a strong person and can deal with a lot of stuff and in the end, they will always win.